Watching Another Earth with my lovely girlfriend!
You will most likely never see this I still remember the first time that I told you that I love you.  I remember how awkward I was when I tried to back out of what had just come out of my mouth.  When I say things that don’t get the reaction I desire, I tend to try and talk my way out of it.  I wasn’t lying, I meant everything i have ever said.  I was scared.  Afraid that I would push you away with my feelings, frighten you.  I am so grateful for every ounce of effort that you have put into trying to fall in love with me completely.  I am sorry I am so guarded.  I’m sorry my communication skills suck, and that I am so impulsive, selfish, broken.  I want to be something better.  Someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.  I don’t share my dreams with anyone.  They are mine and I never want them to end.  I want to spend every waking minute with you.  I want to hear your laugh, and know that it’s me that makes you smile.  I want to make you feel comfortable, feel loved.  It seems that as of a couple months ago I have been falling short in every aspect of my life.  I wont make excuses for my actions, emotions, and shortcomings.  Though the fact of the matter is that you mean more to me than anyone else in my life.  I haven’t ever felt as content in a relationship as I have in the last year.  I have you to thank for the new level of confidence, success, and happiness. The last 24 hours has been a living hell for me, trying to process the information from our last conversation.  I feel broken. Like I let you down and left you feeling unloved.  My words sound hollow and meaningless to you now.  Knowing that I have neglected to see how I have acted and the way that has affected you is my ambition to be a better person.  You have been a miracle in my life.  I only wish that I could show you how much you mean to me.  These words are not enough.  I want you to fall in love all over again.  I need you to know, I need you to feel how much you are loved, and how important you are to me. Always and Forever LRK.

You will most likely never see this

I still remember the first time that I told you that I love you.  I remember how awkward I was when I tried to back out of what had just come out of my mouth.  When I say things that don’t get the reaction I desire, I tend to try and talk my way out of it.  I wasn’t lying, I meant everything i have ever said.  I was scared.  Afraid that I would push you away with my feelings, frighten you.  I am so grateful for every ounce of effort that you have put into trying to fall in love with me completely.  I am sorry I am so guarded.  I’m sorry my communication skills suck, and that I am so impulsive, selfish, broken.  I want to be something better.  Someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.  I don’t share my dreams with anyone.  They are mine and I never want them to end.  I want to spend every waking minute with you.  I want to hear your laugh, and know that it’s me that makes you smile.  I want to make you feel comfortable, feel loved.  It seems that as of a couple months ago I have been falling short in every aspect of my life.  I wont make excuses for my actions, emotions, and shortcomings.  Though the fact of the matter is that you mean more to me than anyone else in my life.  I haven’t ever felt as content in a relationship as I have in the last year.  I have you to thank for the new level of confidence, success, and happiness. The last 24 hours has been a living hell for me, trying to process the information from our last conversation.  I feel broken. Like I let you down and left you feeling unloved. 

My words sound hollow and meaningless to you now.  Knowing that I have neglected to see how I have acted and the way that has affected you is my ambition to be a better person.  You have been a miracle in my life.  I only wish that I could show you how much you mean to me.  These words are not enough.  I want you to fall in love all over again.  I need you to know, I need you to feel how much you are loved, and how important you are to me.

Always and Forever LRK.

Hopefully starting a new photoblog tomorrow!

Hopefully starting a new photoblog tomorrow!